About face my Love...
... a miracle happened.
Good morning, friends.
It's been a little while. I haven't been neglecting you, rather, I have been celebrating my new found freedoms. :-) Grab your beverage, and sit with me a while. God is in the miracles business. I'm here to testify today.
My life took an immediate 'about face' on September 15, 2015... by 9 a.m.
There is so much to tell... even before 9/15/15. It really started last summer...
I had so many well intentioned plans for last summer. I was going to write the songs to my new music album coming out soon, I was going to knock out a few more projects as well, etc.
NONE of that happened.
Instead, I powered down completely. No writing, no instrument playing... I got pretty still inside... longing and talking to God. As a result, the Holy Spirit... within me... intensified. I felt and welcomed His increased presence. Others in my close circle felt the shift as well.
Then came September 15th, 2015. :-)
First, a glimpse of the past:
I have shared a little in other blog posts about having chronic pain due to autoimmune diseases that started when I was about 9. At the height of the diseases' destruction (as a child), I had prayed to God to take me home, or heal me. I was 14 when I pleaded with God, and I went into remission for 20+ years!!!
The autoimmune diseases came back in full swing about 2006, and brought a few friends. There are no known cures for these.
To recap simply... I used to wake up to pain, go to sleep to pain... and moving at all... was painful. I went to war every day... for 10+ years.
Now for the event of 9/15/15:
I woke up at 5:30 that morning, and it was no different than any other morning. Everyone was asleep... and I was in the kitchen standing because the back/neck pain was so excruciating I couldn't even sit down. Typical start to the day... and headed straight to my God... who encourages me and strengthens me for each day. Thank you, Lord!!!
Time slowly crept on. The family scooted out the door for school. And I was still standing in the kitchen.
After they left, I began reading a new book in my digital library. This one was mentioned to me over the summer by a leader at my home church. That morning, for whatever reason, I decided to begin the book.
As I was reading, the author was talking about healing... on earth as it is in heaven.
Here is where God had already been at work in me. At the beginning of this year, He spoke and told me to live out my heavenly life here on earth... NOW... to be free in Him, here.
He also told me then that I would be in the deliverance business... setting captives free.
As I was standing there reading, I heard God softly say, ' You do it (pray for healing) for others, but not for yourself. Lay hands on yourself.'
Immediately, I placed both hands to my chest and began to pray HARD and LOUDLY... with all authority IN Christ (A small group of us call these times Godified moments... where the Holy Spirit is in total control).
As I was continuously praying, I did an about face, took 3 steps toward the kitchen window. Then I raised my eyes to Him, my right hand to the LORD, and the left hand I kept to my chest. I prayed for the healing of my organs, for specific parts of my body, my soul, my heart, my mind... I can't remember everything in the moment because... it was surreal.
ALL I know is that this went on for a time. There was 'no sense of time' in these moments.
Then... as I finished praying, I did an about face again... back to my spot where I was going to resume reading.
By the third step, I FELT THE PAIN DROP TO THE FLOOR. It felt like a very heavy chain fell OFF of my body, with no sound. My lower pelvis shifted forward as well. The alignment of my body was immediately tweaked by God.
I want to be specific. When my feet reunited (at the third step), I was PAIN FREE. I looked at the clock on the stove... it was 9 a.m.
BOOM! BAMM! More than a decade of pain... GONE.
I have been pain free ever since.
Can I get a HALLELUJAH and an AMEN right now??? The Lord had mercy... He had been waiting for me... I just needed to ASK for deliverance... for myself. He is so faithful... to what He says He will do.
Now... for the rest of the story:
I had to keep myself from falling down in the moment, I was so floored by this #miracle. I was completely undone.
I sobbed and sobbed for about 2 hours.... for the JOY!!! Then I called my husband, who thought something horrible had happened... for I had a hard time getting the words out. I cried for several days. I couldn't speak about it without getting torn up. There were changes that happened in the first few weeks. My sleep had improved dramatically. I lost about 10 lbs of 'inflammation' weight. I physically 'stand' differently now.
I have spent the last 2+ months reveling in my new found freedoms... getting back to my high octane energy... and we shall see what God decides to do with/through my restored health! :-)
Am I in remission again, or is it gone, you ask?
I do not know, and I do not need to know. What I do know is that God told me to #doit... I did what He said... and the pain is no more.
I do want to mention a few other blessings from God... since the summer.
Remember all the songs I was supposed to write? Well when I came back, my Godly music producer set a lofty goal of cranking out one new original song (writing) every 2 weeks. I have been cranking out at least one a week... simply flooded with words. And the music's sound... well... it's infectious. AND... the Lord has brought a few opportunities NOW, that I would not have been physically able to pull off before September 15th.
It's all about His Timing, His Plans, His Direction. Listen to Him. He's got your roadmap. Ask Him to reveal it to you. It may be a complete departure from where you are currently. GO with Him!
Surrender & Obey. Welcome being empowered by the Holy Spirit!
Please know... you will have to lose your ego and your pride to do this. These traits are in direct opposition to the Holy Spirit.
Let me say this in the most loving way I can. We cannot be in our own measly power, and IN His, simultaneously. It's one or the other. Choose wisely. It's a no lose situation when God is at the helm of your life.
Trust Him. You are worth it... and He is able beyond all human comprehension. God works daily in the miraculous... in the supernatural... for His Power and Glory to be seen and revealed to a watching, disbelieving world.
Pray. (1 Th 5:17)
Ask Him, sincerely. (Matt 7:7)
Receive what He says. ( Isa 55:8-9)
Then #DOIT... to the Glory of God & for the love of Christ. (John 14:23-24)
OH MY Jehovah Rapha!!!
I have spent the last few months in wonder and amazement at all You have done for me! (1 Th 5:16) I weep at the thought of your goodness in my life! My body feels great! Talk about leaping for JOY! I must be feeling much like David... relentlessly pursuing You... I love You, Father, more than anything on earth. No words can adequately express my gratitude... but I know You know me (Ps 139:1-6)... and you see me... and You faithfully see/listen to my struggles, my cries, my pleadings day and night ( Ps 139:7-12)... You knew me before I was ever born (Ps 139:13-16), You faithfully guide and never leave me (Ps 139:17-18), I am a #peacefulwarrior for You, my Lord, no matter what (Ps 139:19-22), please continue to teach and train me, for my good and for Your Glory (139:23-24). YOU are the reason for this JOYful season... every day. Thank you, Thank YOU, THANK YOU!!!! 2015 has definitely been an incredible ride!!! CANNOT WAIT to see what You have planned for 2016, Father!!! WAHOO!!!!!!!
Your Lovestruck high octane daughter IN Christ,